Today was okay even though I was grounded. My grandparents came over and I ate lunch with them which turned out not too bad. I realized that I actually really look up to my grandma. I’ve been thinking about what will happen when I grow old. It makes me really sad to see my grandparents living the same monotonous life over and over again and there only little pleasure is seeing their grandchildren grow up happily. It makes me think: I don’t want to live like that when I grow old. I don’t want to live with the constant thought that today might be the day I’m going to leave the Earth. Think about how depressing that is. Any second you might just die and even though people might be sad for a while eventually you’ll be forgotten. That just really makes me think. How do my grandparents still live with a smile and happiness? I want to be like my grandma when I grow old. Even though she’s old, she still smiles and does things with her life. She hasn’t lost her personality and still is the same witty, cynical, kindhearted person. I hope I’m like that when I’m old. I’m kind of scared that I might get alseimers or cancer or something and die painfully. It’s weird but when I start thinking about that sort of stuff I start getting really scared and caught up with my thoughts and it freaks me out. I should stop thinking so hard.
After my grandparents left I went to tennis then the mall. I really hope I can make varsity next year, so I’m going to start trying really hard ^_____^
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